This week went by faster than any other in my current recollection. I'm starting to get what it means to submit. To be wholly and utterly not in control. It's frightening yet freeing. After coming to some realizations, I deleted Facebook, we do all our finding on computers here, so there's no need to have the app on my phone, and it's a time waster.
And if thy right eye offend thee, pluck it out, and cast it from thee: for it is profitable for thee that one of thy members should perish, and not that thy whole body should be cast into hell (Matthew 5:29).
Consecration is always a growth process and often a painful one. I'm still struggling with just the actual utility of the work I provide. I love the experience of the mission, but I'm still not super connected to the tangible results. Mormon writes about the sons of Mosiah and Alma that they were desirous that salvation should be declared to every creature, for they could not bear that any human soul should perish; yea, even the very thoughts that any soul should endure endless torment did cause them to quake and tremble.
I love my fellow men and desire their happiness in mortality and in eternity, but I'm also pretty accepting of rejection-- probably from my sales days. The people we're teaching have made some poor decisions and ultimately neither of our date sets are going to be baptized on their dates, if at all. Because I have come into the picture later, I don't feel a strong sense of sadness or heartbreak. My only goal these days is to make sure they are making an informed decision. What I love about being a missionary is that the gospel I preach applies to every single human soul. So anyone that is willing to engage and listen and act is elect in my mind, because the understanding of the doctrine transforms people from whatever state I find them in, to the earnest seeker. Seeking to be partakers of the divine nature, to be joint heirs with Christ and to ultimately be a child of the most High. God loves effort, and as is consistent with his character, he rewards it generously. I love the gospel, I love my Savior, I love you guys!
-Elder Dahl
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